What do you do when you feel so hopelessly inlove that you would literally be shamed by everyone just to have that one person by your side?! and What do you do when it all comes crashing down because theyve done it again and you feel like they would cheat with anyone as long as theyre not with you!? and What do you do when you finally leave them for just the right amount of time for them to go crazy in self loathing for losing you, taking them back and then not feeling sure if this is love anymore. What can you do? Id like to know .. because at the end of the day.. i deserve better, but Better isnt HIM! Better isnt going to look at me the same way he does or touch me the same way he does.. Better isnt going to hold me in its arms at night when im cold or cant sleep, and Better sure as hell isnt going to feel like the tingles i get from his hot breath on the back of my neck everytime he comes to kiss me.

He has hurt me in so many ways that when i look in the mirror it isnt even me staring back anymore.. Hes broken my spirit, hes made me cry, but yet i always run back and i dont know why but i do know that he makes me happy. Maybe not all the time but he does and i just cant let him go.

Hes my sick puppy, hes my adventure, hes dark and cold and yet he draws my attention and keeps it. He stares me in the eyes and everything blurs because i know hes looking at me. Then my heart starts to race and i feel all happy again and nothing can take that away. Until.. he cheats again.

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*-love and pain.
written by Amy Jem, August 10, 2009

I'm another one who can relate to this and as of right now have no way to offer advice or tell you my story, because I'm still here. I'm still wondering if this is right or if it's just me trying to hold onto something that used to be right oh so long ago. Good luck on your discovery. I hope whatever you do it's going to make you the happiest.

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written by CherishLife1, July 24, 2009

I understand how it feels to be so deeply in love with someone that no matter how much and how bad they have hurt you, you just can't let them go. But you should never let someone break you so much that you have even lost yourself in them and can't even recognize who you are anymore. You should never loose yourself in a man that continues to hurt you and break your soul. Because even though it my feel like love and even sound like love, it may not be LOVE! Love doesn't hurt you, betray you or deceive you. Love doesn't confuse you or even make you feel less of yourself. When someone truly loves you back, they won't hurt you the way that he has. Life is too short to love a person that does nothing but bring you misery and pain. I know that when it's good its good, but the bad of love should never be so painful that your spirit is broken. I have always felt like I wanted to be loved by someone so much that I even stayed in relationships similar to yours until I realized that I deserve better and this is not worth it! You will find true love one day but all the heartache and pain is not worth it. It's going to be hard to let go but you must let go before you have nothing left of yourself because you have given it all to him. Sometimes we think holding on is what makes us stronger.. but sometimes it's just letting go!

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I know exactly how that feels...
written by pennybear, June 04, 2009

I feel like im on the same boat...... its so frustrating to love someone so much and have them treat you that way when all you want to do is to love them but sometimes they make it so hard that you want to give up hope....but you never do and we keep on coming back even after being hurt so much...

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what to do
written by Gabrielle, May 23, 2009

ive been in that situation with my ex before we are 4 years in a relationship but he cheated to me not only once but multiple times but i give up because i realize that he is not worth the pain and i tried online dating and it works with me im getting married soon to my fiancee which i meet through online dating at http://www.asiandatingmall.com its a nice site..why dont you try you can try also http://www.saigondarlings.com good site too.

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