its been 3 years since that terrible day i miss her so much i can't help but think about her for her death was yesterday jan 10th of 2008 she was the one person i could open up to i miss her so much she was the only person i loved unconditionally she carried my child inside her
i was 14 then im 16 now she was 16 then shed be 18 now
back to the story it all happened so fast i heard the breaks screech someone screamed i hit my head and everything went black when i awoke
i looked over at her...there was so much blood i screamed her name she wouldnt open her eyes or move then i realized what happened she was gone all i could do was cry and i screamed in agony
then i heard the sirens in the distance
that damn drunk driving he took everything from me
i wish i could take everything he loved his family his friends his...life  just like he took Cary's.
Cary Thompson the most beutiful girl in the world he silky red hair her sweet green innocent eyes those cute dimples when she smiled at me
i love you Cary...ill see you and our baby in heven i promise.......tell my son i love him.......and i love you so...much

The One I Thought I Loved

I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE ONE THAT I WOULD SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE. IT SEEMED TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE, YOU HAD THE RIGHT WORDS TO SAY. THE SOFTEST TOUCH, THE DEEPEST KISSES, BUT IT WAS ALL A LIE. I THOUGHT THAT YOU LOVED ME MIND, BODY AND SOUL. THE WAY YOU TALKED TO ME JUST SENT CHILLS UP MY SPINE. MY KNEES GOT WEAK AND I JUST MELTED IN UR EYES. THE HAZLE HONEY BROWN RIVER THAT FLOWED THROW YOUR COMPLEXION,WHEN IT  TOUCH MINES JUST TOOK ME AWAY. WE SPEND COUNTLESS HOURS WASTING AWAY,BUT IT WAS ALSO A LIE. YOU TURNED OUT TO BE A LIER, HEARTLESS, AND MANIPULATING. YOU TOOK MY KINDNESS FOR WEAKNESS AND YOU BROKE ME DOWN. TOOK EVERY OUNCE OF LOVE FROM MY BODY. AND NOW IT IS EVER SO HARD TO LOVE AGAIN. LOVELESS AND NUMB TO THE WORLD. I HAVE NOMORE LOVE TO GIVE!!! IT A WORTHLESS AFFAIR LOVING MYSELF. ITS ME AGINST THE WORLD!!!!

i met pengzz as we call each other from a common friend when i was working abroad, 2 months before i came back to pinas.. we exchange messages in facebook whenever we get the chance to be online.. then i asked his # for me to communicate with  him on my arrival coz his friend has pasalubong for him.

It was gloomy and dull

 by the way i am the one of a broken hearted gurl ..I love some one and let s hide him sa pangalang justin..i love him so much,but for now i know he hates me..what should i do??

I am teary eyed while listening to the songs you once sang for me "Sana ikaw by Piolo Pascual", "Nandito ako and Bakit labis kitang mahal by Leah Salonga" . All i wanted is to hear your voice again. :( RP. i had finally known the truth.The TRUTH that i ignored because i thought you are not REAL. Why is it that you don't want me to know your true feelings for me? why is it that you are hurting me even if we both know that we do like and love each other?? 

RP,

there's this man, so nice, religious and is really a beautiful creature. when i first met him on one of my covered areas he gave me his sweet smile. he's always been so good to me. he makes me smile whenever I'm sad. he's one of the RNheals of DOLE that really heals. he would text me "hi po, mzta kna? ingat ka lagi. godblzu po! :)". i am just missing this man. :(

it was never really my intention of falling into a situation which i know that i will be the one to suffer. things just turned my emotion into an unexplainable feeling, of why am i hurting this much because of RP. it is one of those days that whenever i would visit their place I'm happy, excited..nervous. i hate myself for letting myself fall for him because it is impossible that he'll like me. duh?? 

I’m your typical girl from the province, my name is Jerrilyn Vicente. My friends call me Jet. Growing up in a family of five, I was much closer to my younger brother than my elder sister.  So being closer to my younger brother, I kinda became a lesbi when I was still in grade school. And as I step into high school I changed my image from being a lesi to a boyish girl. I even changed the set of friends I hangout with just to satisfy my change. Though I still hangout with my old friends every once in a while.

i guess ds s it..its almost 3weeks since he havnt talk to me on r 1st week he did not take off relationship status wd me or do anything in his fb acnt ,my wall post is still der.on d 2nd week he invisible his relationship status  and wall ...and now he change status to complicated wd me and make his wall visible to me. and find out that he erase my wall post to him...i send him a msg on fb chat saying thank you and hope we can still be frens ,and on what to do for him to 4give me but then he so hard that he did not reply...ds s clear to me now...honestly am dat sad for 2 weeks coz am stil hoping but then ds  clear to me...cant stop crying knowing dat it will never be d same again.... i hope god will guide me along d way.... i know ds s hard... knowing dat ds started because of my attitude...guess ds happend for me to learn and will not do the same ting ..i promise i wont... i shud be more patient and understanding and will control my anger...  in d future i will be reading this again to remind me not to do the same mistakes again...may god guide me...i know ds will be a difficult weeks to come....i dnt know till wen i will be ok...hope god will make me stronger and face future wd a smile and no anger...james am sory for everything i will treasure dos memories  wd u ..u have no idea u make me happy am sory i dnt make u feel dat way ..... :) i love u :)

oh god! pls give me streght to move on...i really do everything to win him back..but his not accepting my apologies..i feel guilty dat it started wd me..i turn a nyc man into a monster..did not expect dat i made a big mistake.... :(  this is new to me having a serious relationship a lot of adjustments but then he cant take anymore my attitude....am sory for making u feel dat ur hurting me when ur not... i did not mean it ...my actions did not come out wd my real intention to u..i just wanna be with u... i apreciate everything u done to me...but i guess ds is it... i want to thank u for making me feel wat am capable of doing for d sake of love...thank u i will never forget you..i hope u will find som1 that will make u happy.... and on my next relationship i will learn from ds experience...i wish it cud be wd u...but ur not talking to me anymore not even acknowleding d letters and msg that i sent u... lord may both  of us peace of mind  and forgviness....i forgive u james... i will miss u :( 

I HATE YOU,
Your so perfect and I can't believe that i fell for you, 
I still love you and I loved you for about a year but I feel like I will always love you because everytime I date someone new, i feel wrong.  I feel i am using him and I feel like a killer because I brought so much happyness to his life.  Now I gave up in dated someone new because there is no use of forgeting you and there is no way of me letting you go. Your a  huge deal in my life and I want to build a wall around my self to protect me from geting hurt but there is no use.
     I hope he thinks of me because we are great friends and I would rsked my life for him because I fucking love him, But he doesn't love me but that fine with me but only thing i want is him to be safe, happy, loved, and to not hurt.
    He wants to be popular  but we know that won't happen, He hang out with them but they make fun of him, i feel bad for him and i try to do everything to make him happy  and it works for a couple of hours but then it wears out.      He has a pretty hard life already but he does make it worst but i tried to fixed it but it doesn't work because mostly it is with his family. He is a drama king but that is one reason why i love him. I don't care what people think about him i just care about  him.           Well, he is moving this year and i don't kow what to do without him because he is my world and i already cry when i hav to say goodbye for just  vacation which it about a week, and i cheer up but in the end i realized that you are the only one that i will always love and i will wait even though it hurts like a getting stabed with a knife. I love him fucking much and i wish he is not moving but he is and i can't do anything.
 :(
I LOVE YOU SPENCER

never forget me

A year ago today, the greatest hguy in the entire plane (sp?) of existence came into my life. He was taller than me, a lil bit bigger than me. his dark brown hair, and ice blue eyes that always seemed to captivate me. We began a friendship after that and then shortly after that, a wonderful romance, things seemed amazing. i was happy every day, i wasn't the sad and depressed girl everyone had grown to know and love, i had come out of my shell and was acting as a decent teenage girl should. we were happy, and then (of course) bad things happen and now he and i are just familiar strangers. granted we text and sometimes he gives me rides home..but...it's hard to keep the words "i love you" kept deep in my heart, because i never stopped loving him, even if he stopped loving me. yeah i wish like mad mad heck that he and i were still together, and that he and i would grow old...but let's face it. if you love something, you have to let it go. but what if i do and spend the rest of my life unable to find "The One"? maybe i'm just over thinking this whole thing, but i know deep down that something good will come from me actually managing to say this to someone...well, maybe a lot of someones. i dont know. but advice on how to handle this would be just great. i'm getting tired of being uncertain and confused.

Iv been into many relationships. 

There was a time when I felt like I would never ever fall in love simply because I thought love was something that people used in vain. The relationships I had would go in spurts ending up with me being the one bummed or me treating the girl badly. "Relationship" was a word that really didn't mean anything to me simply because I felt they just didn't work with me. But then I found the most perfect person. She honestly ment the world to me and I was truly in love with this girl. However, the downfall of our relationship fell heavily on me. I never truly showed her that she could trust me; and while I could not understand why she felt this way, its become way more apparent to me now that shes gone from out of my life.  I look at it as if she were just like me: ripping and wondering the streets, saying I was in one place when I really wasn't, texting and being flirtatious with other people, and in a nutshell not doing right by me. I would have NEVER tolerated it! But yet....I expected her to put up with me. What an asshole, yes I know. But as you see I have lost this girl and it is the worst pain to think about me losing somebody who I thought I could honestly marry, start a family with, and then grow old with. And not only that, someone else will get to have such a special girl. If I could start all over, I would go back and change how much of an asshole I was to her; however, this is reality...there is no time machine that I could use to go back in time. Although I hate to say it, I have to accept that its all my fault and I have to let her move on.