You know how when a girl hangs out with a bunch of guys, other people start to wonder if she likes one of them or if one of the guys like her? Well, yeah, the girl probably does like one of her guy friends,  I sure do and it's driving me crazy. The fact that I know that he doesnt like me back kills me, but I that I wont be heart broken because I already know, he's never told me that but I get a vibe from him that he doesnt.

I'm one of those girls that like to hang out with guys, most of my friends are guys, I like that. Untill I end up falling for one of them. It hurts when he doesnt like you back, but then thats the same for all people.
He's Ukrainian so his name would sound funny to others but to me, its beautiful, Sasha.
Some make fun of it, try to immitate his accent (which I find rude and mean) but I think its cute, I like him, of course. He's different from his brother, even if he's younger by a month or two. Igor is crazy and immature, but sweet in his own way while Sasha is quite and mature and stands on the sidelines and watches his older brother goof off. I think that its nice that he's mature, its hard to find a guy like that, but he does act silly every now and then when he's around his brother and they're chatting away in Russian or Ukrainian. Its nice, its exotic, and it take my breath away.
I guess I'm your average, everyday love crazy, boy crazy girl. I dont mind it, I just wish that the guys I hang out with would feel something for me. I get so close the guy that I go past the "we could date" to the "we're like brother and sister", sometimes I wish I wasnt so comfortaable with guys.. but some girls would love to be me.
I dont know why, I just know that it lead to a lot of disappiontment

So when people come up to me and ask, "do you like so-and-so", I say "no, he's like a brother" because thats what they want to hear, if i told them the truth it would end my friendship with the guy, even if I am in pain deep down. But I can't change what the people want to hear

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First love never die.. Nakita lang akong naglalakad, nang makita ang unang lalaking nag patibok ng puso ko.. Litung-lito at hindi ko alam ang gagawin, mag ha-Hi ba ako? yuyuko o hahayaan nalang siya? Parang nanahimik ang mundo ko ng panandalian pero bat parang ang ang saya ko? Kung papansinin kaya kita, makilala mo pa kaya ako? Ang daming tanong, lahat yun gusto ko ng masagot. May girlfriend kanaba? Pwede paba tayo maging mag kaibigan? Busy kaba? Hayyy.. nahihiya ako :"> Sana pala pinansin kita kanina. baka sakaling mapana tayo ni Kupido, ikaw pala talaga ang para sakin..

they called it puppy love I called it love, now as im older i see that if i loved him i wouldn't be able to help him while dating my cousin whom i was always jealous of no matter what i said. i love him now as well but i couldn't see my self in a realtionship other than the friendship and that there is incredible for as long as we've known one another being friends this long is a record. i think there are a few reasons i could never love him more than a friend or a brother is cuz i cant picture us in a sexual relationship, i can sleep next to him but as soon as it gets touchy even if its an unconscious decision i don't want his touch upon my body at least not like that. were one and the same that's what our moms say, you guys are basically the same personality only in different bodies. and looking on it from a perspective i can see that we like alot of the same things we act the same we even talk the same.  Best friends is what we are and i cant say that is a bad thing.

One day i barrow the cellphone of my brother because i just want to text my friends .. but i see the number of one of my brother friend.. i text it just for friendship.. her name is Monera she is 19 yrs old .. when we are texting we are getting know each other .. but we have 1 little or a big problem we have a different religion she is a MUSLIM and i am a CHRISTIAN i am very disappointed .. but i just ignore her religion because i just want to friend with her..

So i've been knowing this guy james for about 5 years we've been good friends for that while.  I met him in highschool the first time and it was just kind of a wierd meeting because he was just staring at me and i was like who is this dude staring at me and i never really got his name but then a couple weeks go by and he's in my class i get to know him and his name and that he is friends with this guy i kind of had a crush on named bob and at this time im young im dumb and a big flirt so basically i want him to hook me with his friend.   So i start hanging it out with james more to get closer to bob.  Now james is a funny smart sweet guy and he is fun to be around while trying to get closer to bob im spending time with james and im having more fun with james then i would with bob.  I would play around in his room put on his clothes do fashion shoes, clean his room just good fun and funny memories.   A little time goes by and im now in a relationship with bob im happy cause im still having fun and now im hanging out with james and bob together because their friends and were just all friends happy having a good times and all that but somewhere in there me and james start an emotional relationship and we have these feeling for each other that we both decide we can't act on because he's friends with bob and im bobs girlfriend.  Now bob and james's relationship was mostly based on me or at least thats what i believe because james got so close to bob because he was trying to hook me up with him and some other business factors so thats just a little fact you should know. Anyways so now me and james have feelings for each other i learn that at one point james was in love with me he liked me a lot probably wanted to be with me but i wanted bob and wasn't really paying him any attention in that way and now i feel like a fool cause suddenly im feeling like maybe i should have been paying james a little more attention.  So years go by me and james have pent up feelings me and bob are in a steady relationship kinda too steady more like marriage and yet were still having fun as long as were with friends being young you know that whole thing.  But we soon start to grow up we all start hitting 18 19 20 and james gets into a relationship with my help i might add so now james is in a relationship with angela and they are happy cute and have great sex together.  Now me and bob are together and a lot older and we are living like were married so much that we even have a son together.  Now the nine months that i was pregnant i was in love with bob i spent and enjoyed my time with him and my feeling for james had supsided i wasn't really paying him any attention and he was in a relationship with angela they were doing there thing and i was big and pregnant and fat whatever anyways so i have my son and he's wonderful me and bob spend are first year parenting together and slowly it just starts to become life and i see myself somewhere different somewhere not with bob and i've always kind of had that feeling but its become a lot more strong over the years.  So i'm kinda feeling stuck now with bob i have a son with him and everyone is asking us when were  getting married that type of thing and i just don't see us moving forward that way and being happy about it the way i should be if i were to do that. So im in a bad place with love looking for someone to save me and along comes james one night were all hanging out as friends me james angela and bob and me and james are the last ones left awake and we head outside to go hang out and listen to music in the car now we have always had emotional feelings but we never really acted on them we talked about them and put them in there place.  So slowly but surely after talking about how are relationships are a little messed up he's telling me angela is abusive im telling him im not completely happy with bob things become physical and we have sex for the first time and on the day that, that crazy priest dude said the world was gonna end i might add may 21 2011 me and james had sex for the first time and it was the best sex i had ever had now i haven't slept with many people the person who took my virginity and bob that was it so its not long omg he's a sex god but its like he's my sex god shit and bob really never hit the spot for me but on some real shit james did and it was great so after this little adventure we some how agree that this was just sex and we can't act on anything else and im just like ok yeah whatever i know.  But the next morning im confused im lost im ok but not ok idk i wanna have sex with james again i want him simple as that but somewhere there is still control telling me no you can't be realsitic so i simmer down and take it easy but as time goes by when were hanging out james is telling me that he wants more so eventually it happens again and again in my bathroom, in his bed, in his couch and might i add his couch and his bed is also

love n friendship..two most important things in life..and if they come in same form..thats the luckiest thinkg that can happen to you..so i guess im the luckiest person..but it comes with complications..because things change..the person changes..and you dont know what do you want..the person to act as a lover..or as your friend..

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i'm in love with a guy who has a girlfriend we're going out for about 8 months already.. whenever we're together he treats me like a princess.. he said he love's me but he still can't let go of his girlfriend.. it hurts to see them together.. what should i do.. :( should i continue going out with him? i 

My story,

So I have to get this off my chest because I have just been letting it build up inside and everyone knows that's never good.

Four years ago I met a woman who I immediately felt an attraction for. She is the epitome of what I look for in a person. We conversed but nothing happened because I didn't make a move. Soon after I met my current girlfriend who is one of the most benevolent beings on this earth.  She truly is the ideal girlfriend for many. But up until recently I keep thinking about "the one that got away", so much so that I dream about her. Now, I have conditioned my mind to manipulate my dreams but with this woman I can't. In the dreams our relationship is always platonic; its always quite pleasant to see her and hear her voice. It's a true shame dreams can't be recorded. It is be cause of these dreams that I feel like I should break up with my girlfriend. It seem doesn't seem fair to think about someone else. If anyone could please help me it would greatly be appreciated.

Adeu

I honestly thought it was a lie.
You will never be tremendously hurt till your hurt by your own family.
Not even to prove but when you sense the decency of betrayal, and never told the truth.....

You become cold, the coldest I ever been in my life.
I cant cry, I really can't even think straight but to the point of running and never looking back. Maybe its me, I believe it is. But I can only be me.
Just leave me alone in my own world. Angry would be a complete understatement, hurt is not even to be defined in this situation.
Walking around with the world on your shoulders is like entering hell just coming out of a oven, just adding flame to the pain.
Karma breeds pain.
Im not the best but Im definitely not the worse. Walking around like everything is ok, when in reality its not!
Prayer doesn't seem to work but I feel like whats the point of holding onto faith when it seems to get you no where.
Where is everyone when you need them.. being fake, using and abusing
But I stick my hand out with no grudges just to get a slap on the hand. I cant lay the blame on no one but myself.
hottest summer ever!

Kay sarap paglaruan sa aking balintataw ang kwento ng aming pagkikilala, pagkakaibigan, pagmamahalan at paghihiwalay ni Spanky.

Nakilala ko si Spanky isa ring Pilipino sa pamamagitan ng isa sa aming mga student-trainee sa Hospital - Riyadh, KSA, si Abdullah. Sa tuwing may gustong malaman si Abdullah sa wikang English o Filipino ipinapakausap niya sa akin sa cellphone ang kababayan kong ito sapagkat maalam na siya ng wikang Arabic. Sabi pa ng batang mag-aaral kami daw ni Spanky ang private tutor nya sa language at speaking.  Simula noon tuwing duty si Abdullah or kapag nasa kapihan siya kung saan nagtratrabaho si Spanky bilang barista tatawag sila at makikipagkwentuhan sa akin. Ngunit kabilinbilinan ko sa batang mag-aaral na huwag na huwag ibibigay ang numero ng aking telepono o cellphone sa kahit na sino kahit na kay Spanky pa. Subalit isang araw ng Huwebes tumunog ang aking telepono sa departamento at isang tawag na hindi ko inaasahan ang magiging simula pala ng isang malaengkantadang kwento ng pag-ibig na maghahatid sa akin sa samu’t saring damdaming ngayon ko lang narasan, nararanasan at mararanasan. 

Kringgggg…

“Hello, x-ray good morning!”

“Hello! Good morning, can I speak to Ms. Max please?”

“Yes, this is Max speaking. May I know who’s this?”

“Spanky.”

“Who?”

‘Spanky friend ni Abdullah.”

“Who?”

Hindi ko agad maalala ang pangalan niya hindi ko kasi inaasahan ang tawag na yun dahil wala naman akong binibigyan ng numero ng telepono ng aming ospital.

“How do you know my number? Sinabi ni Abdullah?” supladita kong tanong.

“Nope, namemorize ko lang.” Very humorous nyang sagot.

“Ha! Paano yun?”

“Tuwing tatawag sa iyo si Abdullah tinitingnan ko ung number na dinadayal nya kinakabisado ko kaya eto natyempuhan kita.” Mabiro niyang paliwanag.

“Owsss…Panu kaya yun?” hindi pa rin ako naniniwala sa paliwanag niya.

“Totoo nga kinabisado ko lang.” Seryoso nyang tugon.

“Okey. Sinabi mo.” Pag-sang-ayon ko na lamang bagaman may pag-aagam-agam.

“Pwedeng friends na tayo?” Tanong nya.

“Walang problema, yun lang pala.”

Hindi ako naniniwala pero maayos naman akong nakipag-usap sa kanya sa telepono.  Ilang araw matapos ang insidenteng ‘yun nagkita kami sa duty ni Abdullah, kinompronta ko siya at pilit pinapaamin kung totoong hindi nya ibinigay kay Spanky ang numero ng telepono sa ospital at talagang nagalit ako sa aming mag-aaral. Hindi raw talaga pag amin niya at tinawagan pa niya sa cellphone si Spanky upang linawin ang aking pag-aakusa. Nag-usap silang dalawa at nagkaintindihan subalit hindi ko na nalaman kung anuman ang kanilang napagkasunduan sa bandang huli na lamang ng aming kasaysayan natuklasan kong may caller ID pala and pwedeng magsave ng calls ang landline nila sa kapihan. Ignorante talaga ako.

It all started out with a boy that I dated for only two days after a dance. We didn't talk at all, which ended it with him breaking up with me. At first, my idea of this was the single ladies music video. Even though we didn’t go out for a while, I felt like I was untied from all those "boyfriend-girlfriend" chains. I clearly felt like I could just start all over in my love life, but that never ended up happening. About a year later, a friend of mine had a rumor going out that my "ex" and she kissed, and they weren’t even going out. Some say that it was true, others say it wasn't, honestly, I don't know who to believe. A couple months after the rumor break out, another rumor came, and another girl and he are going out now. But this time, it was set up by a girl who has gone way over the edge with herself. At the time, I wasn't mad at all! In fact, I felt like I needed to say straight up that I had no care because "my love life would soon change!” Well, something changed alright. The girl who set them up was shortly after kicked out of our school by doing some un-called for things. Strangely enough, my "ex" and the other girl have been dating for I think more than a year. And i've noticed something different about my "ex". He always wishes to look in her eyes, he wants to hold her hand, and as any girls dream, he WANTS to be romantic. Right once I started noticing this, my heart couldn't stop pounding. Crazy thoughts came to me, thinking about me and him once again going out, but this time he was showing ME the same affection as he does to her.                    I talked to her once while a game was going on at school, we were on the other side of the field while her boy friend was watching her and smiling at her on the other side. She told me she felt un comfortable and she felt like he was stalking her, once he was only trying to show his love and romantic side with her. This made me feel gross inside. He was going out with a girl who thinks he's a stalker?! AND HE DOESNT KNOW THAT SHE THINKS THAT OF HIM?! I was mad. I could easily be with him and not mind all those things that he does to her, but she on the other hand hates it. I personally think that she doesn’t deserve him, not one bit!...Any ways, I always see them playing around at the beginning of school, he wants to hold her hand, she backs away, he sneaks up behind her, she freaks out, he gives her a hug, she screams, then, it turns ugly. She has no problem being hugged by her best friends; on the other hand, once it’s her boy friend, she hates it. I truly don’t understand, isn’t that the point?! The name boy-friend isn’t just given! It’s earned!! And if you are able to hug your "girl-friends" then why can’t you hug your "boy-friend"? It’s just confusing.
Anyways, I see him all the time, some times he says hi to me in the hall ways, and that’s when my heart flips out! Once I try to say hi back, I always have a voice crack!! It’s so embarrassing!! I’ve tried to talk to him, but our conversations are always about how boring class is, and when it will be over, as a result, it ends quickly. I once had a thought in my head, then made me stare at him a whole day. It was of just us two, lying on some grass. We were lying down and all we did was faced each other and stared into each others eyes for hours on end. The thought gave me chills, almost like it actually happened. I saw him a different way once I thought about it. One time during class, he showed me a spray on tattoo that he got at a festival. I was so happy that he showed that to me, until another class came up, and another friend of mine wanted to make me jealous so she told me that he did the same thing to her, and I saw it. I truly felt like I was cheated on, even though he had a girlfriend still, and I was still a single lady. I don't understand why people celebrate the fact that they are single, because it sucks when you see the guy right in front of you loving on another girl and you guys only lasted two days, while they have lasted more than a year. IT SUCKS. Bottom line.
At the end of the school year, there were some awards given out for our progress throughout the school year. I was in art the second semester and I had much fun in it. He was in it too, along with his girlfriend, I never talked with him in that class because I would feel like I would be interrupting their relation ship. And guess who got the art award? Me! I was proud of my self and I was jumping with joy, and then. His name got called out. Apparently according to my friends, every person in my class was saying to his girlfriend"ooooohhhh, competition!!" and as a dream come true, once we both got up to walk on the stage, our eyes met at last (finally!). He let me go first on the stage and I gave him my ugly smile (I call it that since I looked in the mirror recently and noticed how un attractive it looked). I walked up on stage and was light headed. This was my first ever award. EVER. And I was proud. I wanted to congratulate my "ex" on his award that he got with me, but I never got the chance to talk to him. A week later, I left the school without ever being able to see the school again or him ever again. A couple weeks later, I get an email from a close friend of mine saying that my "ex.’s mom is ill with breast cancer. According to his girlfriend, the doctor told him that his mom could possibly pass away with 2 weeks max. I felt horrible, because I have gone through the same thing with my grandmother who passed with breast cancer. I wanted to be able to see him some how and do all the comforting that he needs, which his girl friend isn't giving him. I wish I could help, but I really can’t. I'm mixed with my feelings. He has a girlfriend, and I used to flat out love him. Then his mother's life is on the line and I can't help him. And lastly, I’ve forgotten every thing about him. Sadly I can't remember what he looks like, or how he wanted to be romantic. I forgot the ways how my heart felt. This is what love does to me.