Sorry n Thanks..who the hell discovered those words?

Very easy to say but too difficult to listen to.................

She said : I m sorry..........i m over u but thanks for everything..

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2:25 am

I just got back from a party, but it didn't mean a thing. So many guys wanted so many things, but all I wanted was you. I shouldn't have been thinking about you, but I was. I don't know why. And I wish I could stop, but I can't. When I'm alone, I think of you. When I'm surrounded by people, I think of you. And the worst part is, you will never know.

I wish things were different between us. I wish you were here, instead of all the way over there. I wish we weren't stubborn enough to hide our feelings. So many words were left unspoken. I wish Icould talk to you, just once would be enough. I wish I could go back in time, and change the way we were - stop you from leaving. I wish I didn't screw things up and leave you hanging. I wish I was strong enough to hold on to you, the only thing that was true. 

I know you fell for me. I could hear it in your words and see it in your eyes. I wish I wasn't young and naive. All I want to do is see your face again. I can't stop thinking about you, not even for a day. If I do,I will suffocate. I want you so bad, more than anything I've ever wanted in my life. I want you now, and I want you forever. Things would be so much more different this time. I would give you more. I would trust you and open up. I wouldn't shut you out, and I most definitely wouldn't hurt you. I would give you everything, all of me, just so I can have even a bit of you.

It's been so long, but I can't forget this. I want to, and I try so hard. Sometimes I succeed, but only for a few weeks. Then I go back, start thinking, wondering, wishing. Look at what I'm doing right now! Writing about you. A guy who probably doesn't even care anymore.

I could call you, but that would be stupid. What would I say? And what would you want to hear? I don't think you'd want to hear from me at all. If anything, YOU told me to forget you and move on. And I promised I would, but I didn't. And all I want to say is: "I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you," a thousand times over. But I know I will never get that chance.

It's late, and I should probably go to sleep now. You're probably fast asleep, dreaming about another girl in your other world.

So many guys wanted so many things, but all I wanted was you...

Why men sometimes is so confusing and the last things I hate  is  guessing!!!

Love,

believe me ..

Hi, im confused about love. i have always been the type of young lady (im 20) to believe that love is beautiful and passionate and that you can love someone so much it hurts to picture yourself without them. i am confused i have a boyfriend that ive been with for 2 years. hes an amazing guy, i can tell he loves me unconditionally. he does so much for me and has always been there for me. and i love him alot for the person he is and for never being judgmental and always trying to help me. his name is Nathan. but i don't feel that burning in my heart. i dont look at him and feel like i cant breathe. i felt that when we first started dating but it quickly vanished.  sometimes i llok at him and cry to myself because i think how can i hurt him how can i not love him? i feel so horrible and i feel like im being  ungrateful that i cant have the same feeling for him. ive tired i really have.  but my heart longs for something more. i want to feel that passionate love. my family loves my boyfriend, so do my friends. sometimes i think im in this relationship  for my family for the most part. i did want to be with him but now im just so confused. i dont want to lose him if the "love" i believed in isnt real. i dont want to hurt him he doesnt deserve it. i dont want to break his heart after what he has been threw he says im everything to him and he has proven it for all of our relationship. i cry as i write this. my heart hurts just thinking about the pain i can cause him. but what about my happiness and the love i crave for soo much.  im just so confused and im searching for some kind of advice! i see romanitc movies and i cry because i wish to feel that. i know that movies are not reality but for the most part i should be able to feel some sort of that love...right? then why cant i feel it if my boyfriend is everything a girl can wish for. i dont want to lose him as a friend. i love him a lot i just never felt that love people descried. someone please help me. has anyone ever had that love i wish for if so please let me know it does exist! thanks :)

Is true love a myth?  When I was young I mistook the direction that the scent of pheromones sent me, as love.  As I grew older, I convinced myself that it was not about the physical attraction but rather about dependability, security and not being alone.  After the age of thirty five, I was of the belief that true love was a myth, and that my destiny was to have a life of solitude with a herd of cats and dogs (animals love unconditionally).  Then something happened at the age of forty one, I met someone.  I was not sure if I should go forward, but I wanted to put the question to rest: Love- Myth or Reality?  What I found out is this; when you open up to someone and are completely honest about yourself and your expectations for a relationship then you have the base for friendship to grow. From that friendship grows respect, from that respect grows love.  Compatibility is not what you have in common; it is the ability to embrace another’s differences and imperfections and know that these are the things you need as part of your life. 

been abroad

How do you know who you can trust?  I say, go with your gut feeling.  I was a person whose self esteem was somewhat low, so I never trusted my instincts.  I was always second guessing myself and chose to believe everyone.  Boy did that lead to trouble, a lot of wasted time and continuous heart ache.  At a certain point (and age) the heart can only take so much. It was time to think with my head and go with what my gut told me, no matter how hard it might be.  Wouldn’t you know, the minute I began living out this thought process my self-esteem starting growing and my mental health began to gain some stability.  From that point I began to be a whole person and not just the "shadow" of others.  Then something really great happened, I was able to love me. What came next was amazing; I was ready for a healthy relationship and open my heart again to love. Now I am not saying that you should not trust people, I am saying that if something does not feel right then go with what you feel.   

for the first time. he's the first one who texted me. Usually i'm always the 1st one who text him. or send him a group message

Back in 2003, I felt like my husband and I were drifting apart. The communication was poor and it felt like we were roommates. I was completing my graduate studies,so, I was use to being busy. I worked 2 jobs, as well. I did however long for the initimacy of being with my husband. Sex was always good. The intimacy and soul connection were missing. I talked to him about how I felt, off and on for about 2 years. I tried to have free time, but,then he was busy running the streets. He was hanging with the fellows. They would hangout, drink beers, go to the race track, do all kinds of stuff.  At the end of the day, I still trusted him. I believe he trusted me.  We didn't have any kids at the time. So, we just kind of did what we had to do from day-today.  I married my husband, because I loved him. I thought we were friends. We had some good times together. I felt like I could trust him with my heart. I felt if we were to have children, he would be  great father.  I loved him and still love him. But, am I in love with him?  I mean the kind of love that stands the test of time.  Well, now here comes the test!
I love music! I really love house music! There were a few stores back in the 90's, early 2000's that sold this music. There was one place in particular I really loved.  This was a family owned business in my hometown. They always had good music, good conversation and you felt like you were hanging out with friends.  They would play the CD before you bought it, and would special order music for you, if needed. There was a young man at this store, who was so handsome to me. He made it worth it, to buy the music at this store.  He appeared to be kind of mysterious. He was tall, dark and handsome. He wore these great baseballs caps that made him look SO GOOD! Whenever I stopped by, he would always give me this look, but he wouldn't say much of anything  Our conversations were always about the music.  I have to admit that I would fantasize about him flirting with me. But, he never would.  I checked his finger for a ring, I never saw one. But, he carried himself like a man in a relationship. He was respectful. But, it's weird, I felt something when I was near him.  I would feel him looking at me.  Sometimes I would glance in his direction, acting like I'm looking for music, and I would see him looking at me.  So, we played that game for a while.  I'm married. I'm sure he's with someone.  I shouldn't even be thinking this way. But, I'm human. Not feeling connected to my mate, and he wasn't doing anything about it.  I didn't get married to leave or cheat on my husband. I wanted to be married. I wanted everything that comes with this package.  But, the tables turned, and I got CAUGHT UP!

To Viktoria,

I love you,

I think of you often,

I would love for us to be together,

To hold you in my arms,

To gaze into your eyes,

To kiss your lips,

And tell you, " I Love You, Viktoria H......"
Will you be my wife?

I’m still sixteen and last summer….

 When should you listen to your heart? When it screams at you to leave or when it pleads with you to stay?

I want to live with you forever.

 When we go into our first relationship, we also fall in love. Our first true love will never be forgotten, and our love for them will never change. Everyone has their meaning of what love is. To me, it's when you can be yourself around them, tell them anything, accept them for who they are, and when you can look deep into their eyes and tell them you love them. You can see your whole future with them.                Like they say, love is the closest thing we have to magic. When we are with them, it feels like you have been with them FOREVER. But it hasn't been a very long time though. Yes, every relationship will have that one big arguement. If it's true love, you and your love will work things out, it might take a long time, but you wait forever, and it pays off. Love is beautiful and precious.                 When the only thing you have is him/her. It's all you think about! You're so afraid of loosing them, that it hurts you just by thinking of it, at least you know that your love for them is real.

                                            XOXOXOXO- Until next time; Kali

You came into my life unexpectedly. I never thought that I would be feeling this way again. You make my days so great and brighten up my life once again.
Whenever you smile my world stops from revolving, whenever you call I start to stammer, whenever you show care all I wanna do is to hug you so tight. I wanna let the whole world know how much it hurt when I lost you,
and now that your'e back, there's no way of letting you go again.

I always dream of you since the day you went away. I have loved somebody else but i failed to forget you because you are stuck in my long term memory and in my heart.
You still occupy the space in my heart where your fingertips and your memories softly echo. What we had before is something Im always longing to happen again. I keep on telling myself that someday
your'e going to love me again just like before but sometimes in my lonely hours there's one question that bothers me
--- WILL YOU COME BACK? And now here we are, playing with cupid's bow pretending to be okay well infact we're not. Im holding on and I always will to make our love survive because the truth is Ive learned to be optimistic and determined when we lost each other.

Things happen so fast. We find another, love them but eventually there is only one person that we need to be a part of our life. In my case, It was you I needed, still need and will always need in my life because your'e the only person who can make my heart
beats faster and slower at the same time. With you I can be ME, no mask no more pretensions. With you I feel like Im the most beautiful person in the world,
with you I feel the youth in me and most of all.. I feel heaven beside you.

I wanna thank God for leading you back in my life because you came when I was starting to lose hope. Now that your'e here, all I wanna do is to hug you for real and love you until they take my heart away. I love you and I always will even if it takes a lifetime..