Love Blog

How to get that special person to say.....I DO......

Ok as we all know yesterday was Valentine's day. I wasn't expecting something big but I was expecting something . I didn't even get a "Happy V- Day".  He then goes on to tell me that he does not need a day to show me that he loves me, which is true. But dang...nothing, I would have been happy with just a card its the thought that counts. Maybe i'm so upset because he did not put forth any effort this year : (

• 1. supersweet- yung tipong kikiligin ako, hindi yung tipong makokornihan ako. waaaa ( you palpitate my heart into ecstacy ;)
  
  2. cute magselos- yung tatahimik na lang kunwari hindi nagseselos pero deep inside nagseselos pala. yung padeny-deny pa =p
  
  3. makikitext pa sa iba pag wala xang load- xempre para naman kahit minsan malaman kong naalala nya ako
  
  4. kahit bad type xa, at least magbago xa para saken. kahit na nagyoyosi xa o umiinom basta pag kasama nya ako walang xang bisyo na gagawin. ako lang bisyo nya ;p
  
  5. yung may sense kausap (common sense, sense of humor, sixth sense, sense organ, paSENSEa ;p he may not be mentally strong at least logically hes strong. yung kahit anung topic nakakaride xa.
  
  6. yung may odor este! humor pala sa katawan. Ung kalog kagaya ko
  
  7. respects me- yung rerespetuhin ako tsaka ung hindi mamimilit sa kung anong ayaw kong gawin.
  
  8. hindi maxadong mapride- yung magsosori saken kahit ako yung may kasalanan (hehehe)
  
  9. hindi ako igigive up kahit na anong mangyari
  
  10. honest
  
  11. trustworthy
  
  12. gentleman
  
  13. will cry to me at least papakita nya saken dat hes capable of being hurt and vulnerable
  
  14 alaM ung pagkakaiba ng malandi tska kikay
  
  15. can protect me
  
  16. loves me as who and what i am kasi babaeng bading ako, kikay, baliw at mejo.. mejo lang naman may pagka-careless ;p
                                                                                    -KNIKS

Love hurts when the one you love does not love you back.  Love hurts when you find out the one you love, loves someone else.  Love hurts when you give up your beliefs to make love work and it doesn't work.  Love hurts when you have a child with the one you love and find out the child might not be yours.  Love hurts when you get married to the one you love and it meant nothing to the one you love.  Love hurts so much you feel like dying because you wonder if you can ever love again.  Love is supposed to be special but how can it be if Love does not work.  Love is what I was looking for when I found you because the one that I truly loved was here on earth no longer.  My love blossomed when you gave me a special gift from above on a special day.  Love hurts when everything you love is taken away.  You could have done me a favor and stabbed me in the heart because i have no use for it now.  Thank you for showing me the true meaning of love.  Love hurts.....................

Ever since my last entry, I've decided that it would be best for me to just... move on. I convinced myself that if Jonathan really loves/loved me, he would come back. Like the saying goes: "If you love something let it go, and if it comes back its yours forever." So thats exactly what I did. Its a new year, and its time for a fresh start. So anyway, I finally agreed to date this guy whos been trying to get at me for some time now.  We talked about everything. He told me what he wanted in a relationship and i told him what i wanted. We both agreed that if we were going to be together that we would tell eachother everything. We talked for hours about past relationships, his never-ending drama with his baby-mamas, his kids, my exes his exes, his feelings for me, everything. i'm comfortable around him and i can talk to him about anything and vice versa.To be honest, he's everything i could've ever ask for in a man, a good man.  Great right? 

I don't know. If i learned anything in my past relationships, its that you can NEVER be too sure about anything a guy says, especially if you just started going out with him. Everytime I'm in a relationship that feels right, I would completely let go. I have the tendnancy to love whole-heartedly. I either love someone or i don't, there's nothing in between. It's almost impossible for me to love just a little bit. And because of this, it has been counted as a weakness and i've had my heart ripped out time and time again. And now that i have the man of my dreams, so to speak, i don't know if I can let go anymore. All i know is that i have a choice to make; one that could possibly change my life forever. I can either take my chances  and let go, or i could ignore the possibilities and miss my chance to be loved. Either way I'm left picking up the pieces of a shattered heart. Am I wrong for trying to keep from being hurt again? 

I think love is full of sacrifices that we make for each other. Love is an unconditional thing that  we feel within our souls. It comes from within. Love come from somewhere deep. It is like air . It is  like the sun in our days. Without words to describe love, our mouths and tongues would not function very well, but our hearts could sing a thousands of love songs only to describe what real love is.  I may be young  in my 20s to talk about love, but I witness the greatest evidences of all the great loves in the world. I saw a husband and a wife are still happy together even after long years. I saw  some long-term relationships could really work. So there is hope for everybody. There is always someone who is searching for  that special person. It is true!

i hate you,

i know you havent forggoten about me... neither have i

Okay... here goes... let's see if this actually is helpful...  I just deleted all of my profiles from other on-line dating websites.  I was completely addicted, despite the poor quality in guys.  There were a few, but I've noticed we are all superficial, including me.  It's not such a good idea to go on those sites without knowing what exactly you do want.  That is the question I must answer... "What is it that I do want?"  It seems like it's impossible to ask for a descent guy.  It doesn't help that I don't own my time either and that I'm involved in stressful activities.  If I did, I would actually take the time to meet someone.  It seems the ones I'm interested in aren't interested in me.  Maybe it's all in my head... after all, how will I honestly know if I don't actually make any attempts.  Nothing is worst than rejection.  That's actually a scary thing.  In order to avoid this, I went for two years, and several after this, without telling this guy I had a crush on in high school that I liked him.  It honestly wouldn't have mattered much...  In true fashion, this guy was popular, while I was not.  I learned something new yesterday while reading a book that a great friend gave me... One reason I shop, but never find the time to wear any of these items maybe so that I can avoid having to deal with attention from guys.  If this is true on an unconscious level, then why the hell do I continue to shop like crazy.  I mean... I'll buy something then I won't wear it for another year or so.  If a guy looks my way, I'm ready to run and hide like a scared cat.  Speaking of yesterday... it should have been a great day, but in reality, it sucked.  Holidays are pretty much like that now-a-days.  It's getting harder to stay optimistic.  Part of this is because of my lack of relationships for 10+ years, but also maybe because of being the "step-child."  I'll leave this for somewhere else... as this should be about love....   

I couldn't help but wonder at times, why a good girl always ends up with a bad guy, while a good guy ends up with a bad girl... Life isn't really fair at times... Seems like two good people with pure intentions don't find their way. Sigh... Does real love exist?

love and hate are not alike at all
or all they they hav e alot in common
love is a strong feeling but so is hate they are both on one person in life
you hat e some one more then any but
you also love one more than the rest of them
the bottom line i sthey are so much alike
but can they both be used in the same sentnce
yes.
I hate that i love you;p 

somem guys are stupid
some are lame,
 some use lame catch phases
like:
you are the chesse to my mac
do you have a band aid? cuze i scraped my knee falling for you.
Some are romantic, sweet and kind
and they holdn you in your arms and give you flowers
but they are all the same they fall hard and love long
the one who holds you at night and tells you it will all be ok
even thow its noy thats the one that loves you.
the one that calls you back too see if yoou really hung up on them
the one that holds your hand in front of their friends
but most of all the one that is there no matter what shit you get in.
they love you and you need to love them;p
live love and regreat nothing.

It’s written a lot about the feeling of falling in love, but what about falling out of love!? How do people deal with the feeling of falling out of love? Sometimes we can all get a solid excuse for the appearance of such a feeling, such a “my partner was cheating me”, “we have no longer something in common”…But at times, there’s no such a reason for not feeling the same way for the person that you fell in love with. Many of us are then trying to find some silly imaginary faults in the partner which I find to be so confusing… So what to do in a situation like this? I’d say that many people would just do nothing, having in mind that by getting out of the relationship they expose themselves to an uncertain future with a real possibility that they will never find love again…The other category of people will perhaps take the problem head-on, but do they end up any better?  How do You handle the feeling of falling out of love?

‘The greatest thing you will ever learn, is just to love, and be loved in return.’

    I am confused yet again.  I don't know how much I want to write on this site because I fear  some one will read it that knows me.  Any way here we go. 

EVER SINCE NINTH GRADE  IVE HAD FEELINGS FOR THIS GUY THAT I LIK3D ALOT...I MEAN I LIKED THIS GUY SO MUCH THAT IT WAS NEW TO ME AND I COULD NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM OR THINKING OF HIM.....I F3LL FOR HIM AFTER A WHiL3 BUT H3  STILL DOESNT KNOW....H3'S ALWAYS HAD A GIRLFRI3ND SO I NEVER REALLY HAD A CHANCE WITH HIM...WHICH REALLY GOT ME MAD CUZ I NEVER COULD GET MY CHANCE...I TRIED TO GO WITH OTHER GUYS, BUT IT DIDNT WORK BECAUSE  I WOULD GET MAD AT THEM CUZ THEY WERENT LIKE HIM...I WANTED EVERY GUY TO LOOK AT ME THE WAY HE DID...I WANTED EVERY GUY TO TALK TO ME THE WAY HE DID....I WANTED EVERY GUY TO HUG ME THE WAY HE DID...AND I WOULD WANT EVERY GUY TO  PLAY THE SAME GAMES ME N HIM PLAYED....I MEAN I KNOW GUYS ARENT SUPPOSED TO TREAT ME THE SAME BUT I WANTED HIM TO LOVE ME THE WAY HE LOVED HIS GIRLS...I WANTED TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND...AND I WASNT GOING TO TAKE NO FOR AN ANSWER....I WAS DETERMINED TO MAKE HIM MINE...AND LOVE HIM THE WAY HE NEEDED TO BE LOVED...I KNW WAT HES BEEN THRU BECAUSE IVE BEEN THROUGH IT TOO..... HE WOULD ALWAYS TELL ME HIS PROBLEMS WITH HIS GIRLFRIENDS...BUT BEING ONLY A FRIEND I HAD TO HELP HIM BUT I WAS ALWAYS LIKE MAN I WOULDNT HAVE DONE THAT TO U....I WOULDVE TOLD HIM THAT I WAS THE ONE THAT REALLY LOVED HIM AND THAT ALL THE GIRLS WERENT ME AND THAT WE HADA SPECIAL LOVE THAT NO ONE COULD EVER COPY OR TAKE AWAY........BUT I WAS HIS BEST FRIEND.... I HAD ALWAYS TOLD HIM I HAD FEELINGS FOR HIM, BUT I NEVER TOLD HIM I LOVED HIM BECAUSE HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS WAT I GO THROUGH...I DIDNT WANT TO RISK OUR FRIENDSHIP.... I LIKED HIM MORE THAN ANYONE...I CAN ALWAYS TALK TO HIM ABOUT ANYTHING THAT CAME TO MIND...AND WHEN I SAY ANYTHING I MEAN ANYTHING...IVE ALWAYS HAD BUTTERFLIES AROUND HIM AND I WAS ALWAYS NERVOUS TO BE  AROUND HIM BECAUSE I NEVER KNEW WAT HE WAS GOING TO SAY OR DO AROUND ME.....EVENTUALLY IN MY 10TH GRADE YEAR WE KISSED 2 TIMES...IT WASNT REALLY AN ACCIDENT CUZ WE BOTH WANTED IT...I COULD TELL HE WANTED KISS THE WAY HE LOOKED AT ME BUT I DIDNT MENTION ANYTHING ABOUT IT TO HIM....I THOUGHT HE WOULD FREAK OUT ME....I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN WE KISSED  CUZ I GOT WHAT I WANTED (WELL SORTA) BUT HE STILL HAD A GIRLFRIEND AND I COULDNT DO ANYTHING MORE WITH HIM...WHICH REALLY HURT ME...CUZ I CAN NEVER GET OVER HIM... THE WAY HE LOOKED AT ME I COULDNT GET OVER IT...AT NIGHT I WOULD STAY UP AND THINK OF HOW IT COULD BE IF WE WENT OUT, I MADE UP SO MANY FANTASIES AND DAYDREAMS ABOUT HIM....BUT IN THE END IT WOULD NEVER WORK BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW HOW HE FELT ABOUT ME......DURING THE SUMMER I WAS TALKING TO ANOTHER GUY TRYING TO GET OVER HIM BECAUSE I KNEW NOTHING WAS EVER GOING TO HAPPENI WANTED TO BE WITH HIM BUT NOT BEING WITH HIM HURTED ME ENOUGH I WANTED TO GET OVER HIM TO SEE HOW IT WOULD GO.......BUT WEN I TOLD HIM HE TOLD ME HE DIDNT LIKE THE OTHER GUY AND THAT I CAN DO BETTER....I KNEW I CAN DO BETTER BUT HE WAS TAKIN SO I COULDNT DO ANYTHING BUT HOPEFULLY WAIT...BUT WEN I WAS TALKING TO THAT GUY ALL SUMMER I WOULD THINK OF HIM...HE WAS ON MY MIND THE WHOLE TIME.....BY THE TIME SKOOL STARTD I TOLD HIM THAT IT DIDNT WORK OUT WITH THE GUY AND HE STILL TOLD ME HE DIDNT LIKE HIM BUT I WAS LIKE OH WELL...HE TOLD ME HE HAD FEELINGS FOR ME AND I WAS SO HAPPY...BUT HE STILL HAD A GIRLFRIEND SO I STILL COULDNT DO NOTHING BUT LET MY HEART BREAK INTO A THOUSAND PIECES...IT WAS GOOD NEWS TO HEAR BUT IT BROKE ME...THAT NIGHT WHEN I WENT HOME I CRIED AND CRIED AND CRIED...I COULDNT STOP OR EVEN THINK OF SOMETHING THAT WASNT INVOLVING HIM.....I STILL HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS FOR HIM CUZ HE WAS THE ONLY ONE I REALLY LOVED.... BUT NOW HE'S IN LOVE WITH HIS GIRLAND I KNEW HE WAS HAPPY....I DONT WANT TO RUIN HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH HER BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO HURT HIM...SO I KNEW I HAD TO MOVE ON SO NOW  IM WITH SOME ONE IM REALLY HAPPY WITH BUT SINCE HE STILL GOES TO MY SCHOOL AND I HAVE CLASSES WITH HIM IS HARD NOT TO THINK ABOUT HIM....EVERY TIME HE SEES ME HE'LL SMILE THAT CUTE LITTLE SMILE THAT I LOVE  AND WAVE AND SAY HI TO ME...IT KILLS ME WEN HE SMILES BUT IM TRYING TO STAY FOCUSED ON THE OTHER GUY CUZ I LIKE HIM ALOT ....MAYBE HE WILL BE THE ONE I WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH....BUT MAYBE IN THE FUTURE OUR TIME WILL COME.....MY FEELINGS RITE NOW ARE GOING NOWHERE