Ever since my last entry, I've decided that it would be best for me to just... move on. I convinced myself that if Jonathan really loves/loved me, he would come back. Like the saying goes: "If you love something let it go, and if it comes back its yours forever." So thats exactly what I did. Its a new year, and its time for a fresh start. So anyway, I finally agreed to date this guy whos been trying to get at me for some time now.  We talked about everything. He told me what he wanted in a relationship and i told him what i wanted. We both agreed that if we were going to be together that we would tell eachother everything. We talked for hours about past relationships, his never-ending drama with his baby-mamas, his kids, my exes his exes, his feelings for me, everything. i'm comfortable around him and i can talk to him about anything and vice versa.To be honest, he's everything i could've ever ask for in a man, a good man.  Great right? 

I don't know. If i learned anything in my past relationships, its that you can NEVER be too sure about anything a guy says, especially if you just started going out with him. Everytime I'm in a relationship that feels right, I would completely let go. I have the tendnancy to love whole-heartedly. I either love someone or i don't, there's nothing in between. It's almost impossible for me to love just a little bit. And because of this, it has been counted as a weakness and i've had my heart ripped out time and time again. And now that i have the man of my dreams, so to speak, i don't know if I can let go anymore. All i know is that i have a choice to make; one that could possibly change my life forever. I can either take my chances  and let go, or i could ignore the possibilities and miss my chance to be loved. Either way I'm left picking up the pieces of a shattered heart. Am I wrong for trying to keep from being hurt again? 

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written by rwishb, January 25, 2010

make a wish: http://www.real-wishes.com

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written by loveguru, January 17, 2010

Julia if you like solving such love problems.. i am sure you will life www.friendinlove.com I too enjoy there.

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written by loveguru, January 17, 2010

I totally agree with julia... Tell him what you free rather regretting rest of the life saying... i wish i could have expressed my feelings. Go for it. All the best

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written by Julia, January 03, 2010

You're not wrong, at all. I think it is hard to love, and especially to accept it. I also think, that if you let go now, you will always wonder what could have been. If he hasn't given you any indication that he is in any way not the guy for you, i would take the chance, but maybe take it slow. Tell him what you feel, that you're scared of being hurt again. If he loves you, he'll understand.

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