Love Blog

hey guys. so it is offical. my man and i told our parents about our enagement. and they are soo happy for it.  i am so happy they are. it feels amazing.

Yay half a day today. i'm gonna be staying with my baby. things have been better. but it's thanksgiving weekend and im gonna be with him all weekend. he's picking me up after school! woo. ttyl :)

Say you know when the world ends, in four years (not true, just an example)... Do you make the best of it, or do you just blow it off and head straight for God out of fear for what will happen in the near future. Think about how your life affects others, has your life brought joy to others, and do you bring joy to your OWN life? These are the questions you need to ask your self, I'm not here to lecture you about some silly love or hate story that may have happened in someones, or my life. So just take my words into concideration, and a major factor is "if you denie me, Jesus, in front of your friends, then I shall denie YOU in front of my Father, into the the gates of heaven." (Scripyure from the Bible.) Please don't act like the rest of the Americans in the world, too caught up in self obidiance, and selfishness, "When people of my world become un helping and thoughtful of them only ungrateful selfs, I shall send my Son down to my creation take all baptised Christian and Catholic souls and go to heaven, while all the non-followers stay and burn a firey death that they too much are deserving of!" These words are hard to deal with, but are the harsh trueth, and if you hear any of this talk about giant commets hitting Earth, well if you are a strong believer of God then "no man shall ever know the result of DOOMSDAY!" As said in the bible. Also it is OK to have thoughts towards if "God is real or not" if you need some confidence towards these thoughts, think about spirits (ghosts) they do exsist (I have seen two, they called me michael, my name is really Dallas though.) Find videos, and pictures on the web, go to any site, and you'll see the truethness that relies behind the thought or the "super natural, and they are  not ment to be scary, unrested spirots (Ghost) only want to be noticed." So thank you for paying attention to my words, and hopefully I have given you a life change style. And I'm not some high precher of the "Word of God" I'm just a forteen year old "child" who goes beyond the basic thought of all my suroundings and knows a thing or two about Christianity, so don't think you don't have the ability to speak the "Words of God" just because your not in depth towards your religion, but make sure that what you say is true, and not spreading false trueths that YOU believe that MAY be true. Thank You for listening, and have a great life, notice that all people that are strong believers in God are rarely ever sad, and Athiest (non-believers of any types of religion) are depressed easily and are normal weak hearted and are affraid of commitment. So try to give your life some happiness, and open your heart and soul into the life of Jesus and God. P.s don't pray to a physical object like the cross, pray to Jesus it is said that it does not do any good what so ever to pray to a physical object. Thank You for your time have a GREAT GREAT GREAT LIFE. Glad I could help!!!!!!!! Love Dallas Schoenberger...

What are his true feelings towards me?

yah so i am chillin with my buddy jordan, in study hall. cause evryone else left.  lol. peaceeeeee :)

hey, sorry guys i had a quite bad day and i said a bunch of things that were irratating me.  and it happened to come out very indescent. so i am very sorry to you and this organization. wasn't required i apologize. but it's just what i feel i should do.

You....

I know..everything's changed..and yet I'm still puzzled what to do...you don't know that..Maybe.. you won't know that...How can I change my mind..What can I do, to forget you..How did you forget me like this..If the times fly by...Can I forget all about you...Little by little, I'm getting tired....sadly,Love is selfish..More sadly,I'm a fool who have been waiting for youeven though I know you won't come to me for ever... http://blog.naver.com/zozaryong22

wow, i have had a crazy week. i am sooo upset though i missed honor rol by four points in one class. i hate that! i wish she just gave me a   dam b instead of a c! jee. and one of my friends wanted me and my man to come over tonight. which is also his old friend to mention. but he don't wanna be around drunk people an such. sooo i had to say we couldn't come. sooo oh well. but i hope that i get to see him tonight. seriously! -hm- i'll talk to you laterr gotta go >:)

 

I don’t know what am I doing? Is it correct or not but one thing I know that I can’t bear any other seeing her. I can’t bear any other person taking her name.

hey guys. woah my last entry was quite off the chain and random i promise i won't do it again. haha. so me and my hubby hung out all weekend although he was gone mostly cause he hadta work or do stuff for other people. but he did it to get gas money to see me.  i loooove him soo much! tomorrow we have no schoool since it's a holiday and i'm hoping we hang out all day tomorrow. maybe i can saty tonight. god knows :) but i am sooo happy that him and i are together and that's how it's gonna be for the resta our lives.  last night i texted him and said [[check the pic, i sooo made this!]]

So as i have said before i love to have fun....but that doesn't necessarily mean that there is always fun to be had.. Let's just call my parents the strictest parents know to mankind.. My restrictions  include the following.......

This is truly happening to me....

Hola, como estas? i'm just peachy. haha. hanging out it's the end of geometry class and we just had a big stupid test. i'm hanging with my friends. pretty awesome. not really much to say but i thought i'd update :) bien bien.

Hey guys. i have been having the most stressful week i have had in a while. everything seems to be going wrong or out to get me; yeah that sounds wicked childish, but oh well. People have like made it a mission to upset me. and it's my week, so i have been wicked emotional and i cried last night for no reason whatsoever. guess i just needed to cry. it helped a little. Yesterday this kid at lunch had like forty bucks, and i asked if he could give me five of it. i was just joking and i turned to speak with the rest of my friends at my table. Than the kid said my name and i turned and he insisted on me taking the five he was giving me. so i did. and people are starting the rumor that i did something for him to give me that five dollars. when i did nothing. i have a boyfriend i'd never do that to. not even for a million dollars. and here people are thinking and assuming i'd do it for five. that is pathetic. Meanwhile, after lunch we had a fire drill. and one of my lady friends told me that there is a kid in this school who wants to screw me hardcore, and told me to watch my back just incase. so now i am quite creeped out, and i was tweaking last night in my head. Yet, last night i was checking my myspace and the kid that used to be on my profile commented hey what's up. and i told him not much just hanging out moving in with my boyfriend here right off. and he messaged me back, oh nothing just chillen. and he goes, i'm coming down to my grandparents for thanksgiving you can come see me if you want. i was like wtf in my head of course. i couldn't understand why he would think that after him being an asshole and cheating on me twice that i would still be okay with hanging out with him. i told him i don't think that will blow over well with me or my boyfriend. and he's like he can be right there. and my man told him hell no, he won't like that thanksgiving dinner. he's already said he tries to come near me at all he'll take his ass down. so i texted him last night and was like. just as i thought, not a good idea. he never texted back. he didn't need to. you'd think he woulda figured i didn't want anything to do with him after what he did to me. So i told him bout all that stuff just so he knows. i am like that. But sometimes i think i bug him cause i'm constantly telling him bout a bad day i have. he's like it's school isnt it. and i said, well, yah, mostly the people that go to it. i just wish i could go through school without having to make uber close relationships to people sometimes. so i can just hurry up and get through it. don't get me wrog i looove my friends. i just hate the people who need the feel of drama to make their life more interesting. cannot wait to move out and be with my baby though, i miss him like crazzzy. hopefully seeing him tonight at a bon fire my rents are having today with the next door neighbors. i just wanna see him and hang with him. haven't seen him since monday. blarggg. hoping the weekend brings better things though. like being away from school, annnnd seeing my baby :) ohh and no school tuesday of this next week! YES! wish monday was off too :P so i have been looking, and i have found a few i like :)

i really love this guy i have not seen him in 10 months one day when i went over to my friends house we called his best friend to get his number when we got it my friend told him how i felt about him he said thet he liked me and thet he thought i was cute i was so scared that he was going to say i like her just as  a friends but well i found out he liked me it was the best day of my life i love him so much

Well here I am yet again sitting on the same old bed, listening to the same old ipod. God my life isn't as interesting as I had once hoped!. I have made some decisions today and I'm hoping I can stick with them, because it took a lot to reach them.
I'm not going to chase the dream anymore, I am going to resist the temptation to screw things up. I guess I realised that it's never going to happen. I am sad about it, don't get me wrong I am gutted. Basically though you are my friend and I love you. I'm sure it's not the first time this has ever happened to anyone, I mean I'm sure it happens every hour of the day to someone or another, so by rights it's about time it happened to me. Girl meets boy, girl makes friends with boy, girl falls in love with boy, boy still thinks girl is just his friend. It has to happen all the time!. At least thats the story I'm going with to make myself feel better anyway.
I sit there watching t.v with you, laughing at random things, I couldn't give that up for all the world, no matter how strong my feelings are for you.
I'm wondering how I'm going to feel when you get yourself a girlfriend. Christ thats going to sting a bit!. But hey if you are happy then so am I, well not quite but you know what I mean.
Sometimes when you look at me I think to myself, "yeah you do like me" but in the following second it's gone. I have tried giving you hints; just to test the water a bit. You just ask stupid questions, you can't be that daft not to see the signs. It's been there; right in front of your face and you either haven't noticed or you haven't wanted to see it. I would like to bet it's the latter.
When I get to the end of your street I miss you, you close the door and I'm gone thats it.
My friends have said to just tell you and get it over with, that you won't be odd with me and at least I would have got it off my chest. Are they fucking mad?!. Thats insanity right there!.
I was so close to telling you. Scarily close actually. I have got it written down in my book, the whole thing so I could send it you in an email. Bloody hell I'm so glad I didn't send it, that would have ruined it!.
Something totally odd happened the other day though. Glenn Miller playing all of a sudden downstairs? That was not the song I was expecting to hear at all! Madness I tell you!. You know I want that played at my wedding but I can't remember ever telling you. Maybe I did and I forgot, I could see that happening to be honest, thats my little brain for you!.
I'm listening to smother me/queso by The Used. Thats a great song for this situation. Stupid fucking love! Why does it have to screw everything up?!

Its hard to write such things when you know that everyone you know will be reading it. At least here I can write to my hearts content and not have to worry about that. I haven't told anyone about this site because of this. It's easier to breathe when there aren't so many eyes watching you.
I'm sitting on my bed and it's 10.13 pm on a miserable Monday night. The british summertime is nearly over and I can't quite remember when it actually began. I think the weather this year has been tracking my life. Miserable I know at first glance, but not all bad. When people think of the rain they think of it as misery. Weeping, woeful, sadness. This isn't always so. I think of it as cleansing. Washing away all of the feelings that I have found hard to shift. It has done a lot of washing this year.
I spend all of my time thinking about love. It's the bohemian in me. How I long for love. I wonder whether It's normal for a 25 year old year woman to think of it all the time. Don't get me wrong I have felt the emotions you would think were love, but have I really?. I couldn't tell you that for sure. I have spent my days in the arms of people who have made me feel like the world was more colourful and amazing than I could ever think before. I have been with people who have made me forget about the world. I have spent many days looking out of this very window wondering what it would be like to be with some people. I have cried many tears knowing that my love is unrequited. I guess in that respect It's pretty normal.
I see love in everything, it's everywhere. I love it when the whole world seems to be holding hands.
I have met people who have turned my life upside down and never known it. I try to tell everyone who I have ever loved how much they mean to me, but it's so hard to express in words isn't it.
I want that tumbling helpless feeling. I want to feel reckless and idiotic. I want to feel like I have no control and can't care less is that too much to ask?
I want passion. I want screaming arguments and making up. I want to dance in the rain and masquerade balls.
I know I want a fairytale.I can't help it. I want to consume it with every part of my being.
Is that so unusual?

Never knew I could feel like this. Like I've never seen the sky before. Want to vanish inside your kiss. Seasons may change winter to spring, but I love you. Until the end of time.
Such great lyrics. I had it all mapped out when I was a kid. There I was down the bottom of nans garden wondering what it would be like to fall in love. Wonder what it was going to feel like getting married and starting a family. I never dreamt that I would be 26 and still have no idea what it feels like. I know I'm not old, I know I have plenty of time left to do those things, I just envisioned it being a little simpler that's all. I have my world in place. I have my job, my family, my friends, I have it pretty good in all honesty, theres just a gaping hole where my heart should be. An emptiness that I can never seem to fill. I'm getting bored of waiting around for it. I'm getting fed up of feeling like I have no say in my own destiny, but typically when you are searching for something; it never seems to show up, either that or it doesn't quite make it in time.

I need some help. So while in Vegas on Halloween I met a beautiful and exciting girl and we hit things off immediately and ended up having what I thought was one of the most randomly fun nights ever. I believe in the astrological signs and our compatibility that night might have been because I'm a Cancer and she's a Scorpio.

Yeah, its me, same guy who wrote the "Most amazing girl in my life" and "My emotions fucking hate me"                                                                                                   Now I'm back with an update on how things are...

Hola guys. what's been up. soo i am proud to announce that better days has hit 100 hits, and has been dubbed my most popular entry. thanks for making it possable

hey my name is sarah and i think i have a problem!!   Okay so im not yet 18 but i have been smoking for three years... and now that i want to stop i cant. Everytime i even smell a cigarette i want one!  I want sooo much to quit but its soooo hard what do i do??? Should I talk to someone? Someone HELLLLLPPPPP MMMMMMEEEE!!!

i am so happy i talked about how i loved this guy in 1 of my other bologs and i found out he likes me too .this was how i found out my friend called his friend mark and told him i loved his friend mike and ask for his number and he gav it to  us so we called him she was talking to him and told him i like him and he said cool i like her to she i very preety and nice .i was bout to cry befor he said that i was afried he was going to say i like but only as a friend .then we started talking and the next time i go to my friends house i am going to see him i can not wait i love him so much i have liked other people befor but i have never loved and one how i love him