The One I Thought I Loved

I met him Freshmen year and I thought he was a great guy since the day I met him. He turned out to be an awesome friend! We had our electives class together and when that class came to an end it was time to separate and I didn't want that. Then I decided that we would yet have another class together and we did! =)...Little did I know we would get closer and closer but he didn't see through me and what I felt. He never showed any affection which hurt and that was when I convinced myself that we could never be anything more than just friends. Time flew by and we became close over the next year but then we grew apart because I had a boyfriend. ( I never really liked my bf because I wanted to be with him all along but he pushed me away all the time.) The summer before starting our senior year I decided I would talk to him again in that way ;) (I was single then) I talked to him I mean texted him almost everyday and I wanted to get closer to him and become at least friends again. He was sorta leading me on and we were sorta flirting and he once told me " I think I finally found the girl that would be perfect for me" I was super excited so I told him that he should ask her out. He said he would and gave me clues as to who it was and it only narrowed down to me and some other girl but I never got to know the truth because he wouldn't tell me. FInally the first day of school came and I was so excited to see him and when I did I gave him a HUGE hug! but he didn't return it back. Broke my heart into a million pieces and then I thought it wasn't me who he liked so I stopped the full on flirting I had with him. Time passed by I still liked him but I was determined to hide it from him because I would only get hurt. People always told me that they thought he liked me and all I could say was "I don't know" they also told me that we made a good couple (we did). Finally we graduated and I was gonna tell him I liked him since it  was likely that I wouldn't see him again. I asked him what he thought about my plan obviously not telling him it was him but it was probably obvious. He said that I should wait just in case the person didn't feel the same. So I waited and never got around to telling him.

UNTIL one day he unexpectedly asked to go out with him and I said YES!....so we went out to the movies and to eat we were fooling around while waiting for the movies but nothing happened not even a hug! but it was ok I had the best time ever with him!...On my Birthday he confessed to me that he liked but it was too late for both of us so we just let it go well he let it go. About a month passed by and I visited him for his birthday and things happened (yes those things well not all the way but still.) To me it was the best seemed like we would finally be together turns out that to him I was only one night that w=he would later on share with his buddies. Months have passed by and I have hopelessly waited for him because I knew deep down that he would never come around to asking me to be his girlfriend. Now I have finally decide to move on yea I may not have someone now in my life because I haven't met someone special enough yet but I will and I will leave him in the past. Like they say he will be a page in life story book but I can just turn the page and start all over again. 

It still hurt to think of him though because I truly believed that he was my true love but maybe he is my like they say in Spanish "mi amor platonico" (Platonic Love). I will cherish the memories and keep him in my heart deep deep down in my heart 

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