Turned His Back

♥kathern♥ — Sat, 28 Aug 2010 03:11:52 +0100

ive confessed my sins
and got down on my knees,
praying to something that
i thought would help rid the pain.
but days that went by
made me realize i was getting
no answers.
which also led me to
disregarding my previous beliefs.
laying my heart on his table
and asking him to purify my soul....
i cannot beleive i was taught to
think that he was real.
that he would answer the calls
and make you feel reborn again.
it was all liRead More...

Perfect,Precious

stefanie — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 02:23:36 +0100

perfect,precious screams.
screams of hate.
screaming screaming,
falling deeper.
i cant stop this.
too far gone to have a
second look.
an elevator to hell,
only its the empty shaft.
falling into the dark
hallway to hell.
perfect,precious blood.
blood on hells grass.
ive finally fallen.
skies are black,
evil beings everywhere.
tourtured souls
in hanging cages.
perfect,precious...my home.
i dont want this.

A Simple Cut

stefanie — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 02:07:29 +0100

a simple cut,can say so much.
but never reveals
your true pain.
a simple cut,
means so many things.
but just a cut to others.
a drop of blood,
resembles your feelings.
falling falling,
losing touch from life.
losing touch from reality.
a simple cut,
is all it takes.
so simple,
so easy,
slice through skin
like butter.
its so easy.
the simplist cut,
can mean so much.
the person who
drove you to iRead More...

Run Off

stefanie — Mon, 09 Aug 2010 06:43:37 +0100

i didnt mean to....
whenever i do this,
you run off.
i get sad and quiet.
you ask whats wrong,
but i dont know.
so you run off.
i cry because you dont
want me when im down.
when im at my peak
of breaking.
when im ugly.
you want me flawless,
you want me perfect
and happy.
but im not always that way.
i get sad,
i cry,
i get emotional.
and i even thought
you were there for me.
but you ran offRead More...

Nothing Left

♥kathern♥ — Fri, 06 Aug 2010 04:29:43 +0100

There is nothing left.
No one else to please,
nothing more to do.
It's time I give up on this,
like I have with everything else in my life.
I have given up my dreams,
my ambitions,
my beliefs.
Most of these things were for the better
I will admit.
But everything that used to matter to me,
doesn't mean shit.
I have changed.
Drastically in some ways.
But when you think there's nothing left
to even life for anymore,
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Fulfill dreams is still seems unfulfilled!

honeylyn — Thu, 05 Aug 2010 14:24:14 +0100

Fulfill dreams is still seems unfulfilled!

What is the feeling of being free? What is the feeling of having the trust of someone you love? What is the feeling that you’re doing the things that making you really happy? What does it feel? How do I get that?

For a long tiRead More...

cant pretend anymore

stefanie — Wed, 04 Aug 2010 07:31:58 +0100

i can pretend my whole life.
i can fake everything.
i could lie about it.
i could even stay hidden....
but does that help anything?
pretending im ok,
when im not is killing me.
faking smiles everytime
i see you,
i cant pretend anymore.
lying doesnt do anything,
but make me untrusting.
and staying hidden....
well that only protects me.
from harm,
and hurting from people.
pretending makes me look strong.
but amRead More...

not understood

stefanie — Wed, 04 Aug 2010 06:21:30 +0100

wow.....
what i said was an understatement.
there really is no
fucking happiness.
because i was happier than
anything before.
then it all faded.
the tiny sliver of happy
that i felt.
its gone.
i was so happy.
then it turned to tears
like it always does.
it turned to hate inside,
and thats whats making
me die a little
every day.
its what makes me sad.
ill of upbeat things.
i cant do this.
being Read More...

Going Home

♥kathern♥ — Sun, 01 Aug 2010 00:52:24 +0100

im going home.
back to the place where
rationality and relevancy
are virtues.
where goodbyes
arent forever
and the days and nights
are bareable,
where fire
is just a light in the darkness
and not eternal hell.
where blood
only has to run
through veins
and not out of them.
sanity doesnt matter there.
you can be yourself,
whether youre violent
or if your suicidal.
there is a home here,
open for all the outRead More...

Tomb

stefanie — Sat, 31 Jul 2010 05:20:06 +0100

where do i belong?
its not anywhere here...
i know where it is.
its lying dead inside a tomb.
where i rot and
become part of this
worthless world.
inside my tomb,
id lay forever....
im bothering no one,
i make no one sad.
i piss no one off,
id never make another
mistake again.
the only thing disturbed
in the loose dirt and grass,
used to cover up my lifeless
body inside my tomb.
i have no where else to turn,

You Are Not Alone (This Is For You)

♥kathern♥ — Sat, 31 Jul 2010 02:57:26 +0100

youre not alone.
i will always be
by your side.
i wont make you
be by yourself.
i wont make you
have to go it alone.
i dont want you
to think that
theres no one else you
can trust
but your own self.
i hope you know that ill
always be around
for you to talk to
and confide in.
ill be your shoulder
to cry on,
ill be there when
you need to blow off
some steam.
thats what im here for.
someone yRead More...

The Storm

♥kathern♥ — Thu, 29 Jul 2010 01:46:43 +0100

standing in the rain,
looking up at the grey clouds
wondering how i let everything
slip through my fingers.
the thunder cracks in my ears
and the lightening strikes at my feet.
the wind is roaring in my face
and the droplets stab into my arms.
this storm is nothing
compared to the one inside my head.
trudging through the wet leaves
and mud puddles....
where has the time gone?
where did my life go?
how did i end up this way?

not titled....just read=[

stefanie — Wed, 28 Jul 2010 23:12:34 +0100

sitting in this room,
watching everyone else
have fun.
sitting in this chair,
feeling the hollowness of
my chest cavity.
laying on the bed,
watching the ceiling fade to black.
im not sure where
i went,
where im going.
and im not sure that
i really care now.
everything hurts.
everything i touch....
it dies.
my sadness is contageous.
im like a disease.
i spread my symptoms,
just like a disaese.
mRead More...

With You In My Head

♥kathern♥ — Wed, 28 Jul 2010 04:16:29 +0100

with you in my head,
controlling my thoughts
and toying with my emotions.
playing tricks on my mind
and making me feel so alone.
youve found a way inside
and you wont get out.
your driving me crazy
each time we talk,
and you bring me down
and tell my everythings my fault.
its probably true too.
how i screw everything up
and break everyone down.
driving people i love away
and letting the hell inside
rise up and takRead More...

life...

stefanie — Sat, 24 Jul 2010 09:35:58 +0100

life...
its so hard.
its so complicated.
so unfair.
its ungiving.
theres no point to it.
why are we even alive?
how are we alive?
theres no god that
created us.
theres really no reason
for life,
ti live.
i now understand why
people murder other people.
its not bad.
i look at it as if
they are saving them.
because this,
is the real hell you
should fear.
i know why people commit
suicide.

Not Meant For This World

♥kathern♥ — Thu, 22 Jul 2010 01:23:09 +0100

you put your hand on my cheek...
and i didnt even feel it.
you pulled me into you arms...
and i never felt it either.
each time i was with you,
there was nothing there.
i wasnt there.
i was in my own
little messed up world.
the misery crawled in
and swept over my mind.
i didnt recognize you
walking or talking with me.
i was lost.
im just a hollowed out person,
drifting around like ghost.
im not real.
i wasnt Read More...

Days and Days

♥kathern♥ — Thu, 22 Jul 2010 01:04:45 +0100

days and days go by,
slowly and painfully.
theres no one to talk to,
no one to see,
nothing to do.
sleeping the minutes away,
sacrificing my time
so i can stay to myself.
popping pills so i
can rest easier and longer,
busting mirrors
to wipe away the anger.
using shreds of glass...
but only millimetes away from
breaking the skin.
i know i cant do it.
what kind of person
would i be then.
break the skin,
break Read More...

tried to forget..

stefanie — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 07:28:47 +0100

when i went away....
i hoped to forget you.
just for a little while.
i hoped to get away from
the tears and hurt.
i hoped the pain would stop.
but the pain got worse,
from missing you.
from wanting you
every night.
holding me,
kissing me softly.
and the memories
only rushed bak every day.
the memories held
in my head,
mean everything to me.
being with you
knowing youre mine,
mean the world.
looking at yoRead More...

City Lights

stefanie — Tue, 20 Jul 2010 23:19:51 +0100

the lights that blind my eyes.
the smell of beer
that fill my nostrills.
i cant sllep at night.
the cars homking by all night.
the burn that burns
inside of me.
what is it?
hell if i know.
maybe its a sickness....
moaybe its nothing.
the screams i hear at night
keeping me up,
sometimes i feel worry.
the banging next door.
under the city lights,
lie whores.
the crazy people.
drunks and prostitutes.
the diRead More...

Damn Complicated

♥kathern♥ — Tue, 20 Jul 2010 01:25:26 +0100

ive never felt so weak,
so emotionless,
so unimportant.
i dont want to do anything.
everything is so damn complicted.
ive lost interest in
all the things i used to love.
i dont want to go anywhere,
i dont want to call anyone,
i dont want to be around people.
especially people like my family.
i dont want them to see how i act.
i dont want them to ask me
"whats wrong?"
i dont want to tell them.
i dont want my friends to Read More...

Blog entries posted in Emo stories

Turned His Back

Perfect,Precious

A Simple Cut

Run Off

Nothing Left

Fulfill dreams is still seems unfulfilled!

cant pretend anymore

not understood

Going Home

Tomb

You Are Not Alone (This Is For You)

The Storm

not titled....just read=[

With You In My Head

life...

Not Meant For This World

Days and Days

tried to forget..

City Lights

Damn Complicated