I still love him.
Wednesday, 12 August 2009 18:50 Last Updated on Friday, 14 August 2009 03:46
shit! i thought im already healed. i thought i overcome it already. i had faced my life after that heartache. i tried to love again efter that downfall but i failed. now i relized something. the pain did not faded, it only subsided. and now that he showed up again, naking me feel that im still important to him and that he still cares the pain im feeling kills me. fuck! how i want to forget him but how can i do such if he conquers everything in me. he still owns my heart eventhough he had hurt me at the past. i want to breakfree from this pain. i want to cry until i have no more tears. i want to shout until i hanve no more voice. i want to hurt mysekf until i become numb by the pain. i really want to die. i cant handle the pain anymore. it hurts me so badly. it srushes my heart. the fact that he’s not mine anymore and he will never be mine egain is fatal. i rather face death and die than to see him happy with another girl. anyways, it is also my fault. i loved him so much and gave him everything whithout even leving something for myself. i thought he would be my life forever but it turns out to be that he became my karma. he is my greatest love and also my greatest pain. i want to see him. i want to hug and kiss him. i miss everything about him. but im afraid to see me cry infront of him. im afraid that my love will comeback and even the pain itself.
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written by erin, September 16, 2009
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written by Brittany F, September 14, 2009
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written by MissBiPolar., September 13, 2009
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written by ed, August 21, 2009
i know its really hurt..but forget the past..for now,love is not try to find the right person but how matured we are to built the right relation...
be strong..
if you really love him let him be your history and try to find the new one and make sure the new one is worth it
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written by angelinlove7143, August 20, 2009
you should let him free...
it is hard to do but it's the best way rather than wait for nothing...
letting go or giving up is not a sign of weakness, that means your strong enough to let the one you love go...
also, when you're able to forget him and able to find someone to love,make sure that the new one is worth it... and he will never make you cry...
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i reaLie LikE uR sToRy. 
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