i met pengzz as we call each other from a common friend when i was working abroad, 2 months before i came back to pinas.. we exchange messages in facebook whenever we get the chance to be online.. then i asked his # for me to communicate with  him on my arrival coz his friend has pasalubong for him.

when i got back, i started texting him to get his pasalubong but his sched was so hectic. we finally met after a month in his hometown in vigan, when me and my friend decided to visit the place. when i met him, i admit i was nervous but no spark at all. i thought he was just fine and i will not be head over heels with this guy!!

the next day went from vigan to baguio.. me and my friends..we left him in vigan.  from that morning that we head off to baguio, we started texting almost every minute for 2 days and i was not even in registered in any unlitxting promo ( i kept loading my phone!! hehe) just to keep in touch..he was nice enough to text on what to do and where to go in baguio..

as the days passed by.. he was constantly texting me.. from morning till night.. breakfast ka na!! lunch ka na!! dinner ka na!! kaya mo yan!! stuff like that.. which makes me kilig and wonder at the same time.. coz i know he is surrounded by lots of girl friends..i was thinking if he likes me or he's really like that.. so i tried to think it over and just enjoy the situation.

after a week, we met again in manila.. OMG.. i was the one who invited him out ( my 1st time ever to ask a guy out)  i treat him to lunch and we watch movie about penguins ( thats where the word "pengzz" came from) and ate pizza after, his treat!  i gave him his pasalubong, together with a shirt and perfume coming from me!! ;-) i had fun  that night and i think he also did..coz he even wrote a note in facebook about our meetings.. telling that he thinks he like me but he wants to take it slow and he wants to be sure of what he needs.

then we started calling each other pengzz.. days passed and i just found myself falling for him..i started to miss him.. i get mad whenever he doesn't text me but when he replies i get crazy over it and smile!! whenever he's telling me he's tired and exhausted from work, i just want to jump off my seat and help him..i became selfless, i cared for him a lot that i almost forget to keep for my self..

i tried to resist the feeling and understand that maybe he really likes me yet he is still not ready.. or he's just afraid coz i might leave again for work.

 i tried to keep in touch with him and fight for him coz im still hoping that we can end up together and that he will be the very 1st guy i will love..

but as days go by i noticed that i'm the only one making effort.. he seldom texts me..he always say that he is busy..

 and it really pains me a lot..i always cry at night..coz i always think about him night and day for a month.. even praying to god to make our path cross  just to see him again.. my friends even told me to stay away from him but i was just blinded by my love..

 and now its over, i've had enough..i gave up..and it's time to move on...

now, we stop communicating and i even deleted him from my phonebook..

i guess its better this way..i will still miss pengzz, but  maybe i dont deserve him as much as he don't deserve me!!

i can't say i'm not bitter right now.. but i know i'll be better somehow!! 

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