Okay... here goes... let's see if this actually is helpful...  I just deleted all of my profiles from other on-line dating websites.  I was completely addicted, despite the poor quality in guys.  There were a few, but I've noticed we are all superficial, including me.  It's not such a good idea to go on those sites without knowing what exactly you do want.  That is the question I must answer... "What is it that I do want?"  It seems like it's impossible to ask for a descent guy.  It doesn't help that I don't own my time either and that I'm involved in stressful activities.  If I did, I would actually take the time to meet someone.  It seems the ones I'm interested in aren't interested in me.  Maybe it's all in my head... after all, how will I honestly know if I don't actually make any attempts.  Nothing is worst than rejection.  That's actually a scary thing.  In order to avoid this, I went for two years, and several after this, without telling this guy I had a crush on in high school that I liked him.  It honestly wouldn't have mattered much...  In true fashion, this guy was popular, while I was not.  I learned something new yesterday while reading a book that a great friend gave me... One reason I shop, but never find the time to wear any of these items maybe so that I can avoid having to deal with attention from guys.  If this is true on an unconscious level, then why the hell do I continue to shop like crazy.  I mean... I'll buy something then I won't wear it for another year or so.  If a guy looks my way, I'm ready to run and hide like a scared cat.  Speaking of yesterday... it should have been a great day, but in reality, it sucked.  Holidays are pretty much like that now-a-days.  It's getting harder to stay optimistic.  Part of this is because of my lack of relationships for 10+ years, but also maybe because of being the "step-child."  I'll leave this for somewhere else... as this should be about love....   

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