if we get back together  and not by his own will because  i just beg him to come back then i have to consider this possibilities......

• even if i recognize my mistakes and willing to change , it will give him the opportunity to commit more mistakes...and that would mean that i  don't have the right to get mad at him even its reasonable . and i think its not healthy because he will might be abusive to my commitment. and that would mean he can hurt me anytime he wants and be insensitive about how i feel. and that would make my life miserable.
• things will never be the same again,  for me it can be positive change but for him thats a BIG question mark.i will be under him. and should do whatever he wants. thats very unhealthy.

• HE also should consider that he  committed a mistake, if only his open to me about what he feels, the bad side of what he feels towards me then i could have change little by little and wont reach this point. in every relationship there must be a good communication.  Communication would mean not only talking or chatting or texting long hrs about good things but might be as well talk about what should be fixed in order to make relationship stronger talking about each others floss.
• If he also would not recognize his mistakes then i cannot imagine myself having him for the rest of my life.. he can do this all over again , will not talk to me for a long time and will leave me hanging and beg him to come back to me..i cant imagine myself going through this pain again and again. he should also consider changing some of his ways. I hope that he also recognize his mistakes.  

if he will come back by his own will and recognize his mistakes then it will be better . i hope and PRAY that it will come that we will be together given this positive change for both of us. I want to be fair i have no plans of making him under me or me under him.  I love him but if he will not change also then this things will happend again.  basin mapuno ra  sad nya ko in the future

GOD i will not lost hope . i trust u. u know whats good for me and everything happens for a reason.  i have no regrets that this things happens to me coz it gives me a lot of good thing that i can ponder for the rest of my life. I will not learn if his not treating me that way. sad to say we learn things in the hardest way. but i know you are always there with me god.. make me more patient and give me strength for the coming days.. am not totally heal but i know you have good plans for me. sorry for everything and for not thanking you and not asking you to guide and bless our relationship.

If you are to ask me god i want our relationship to work. given this good changes for both of us. but then if his not really for me then pls help to accept and move on and will not be bitter about relationship.  I wish also that he will find som1 that will treat him the way he wanted to be.  hope that he will not be bitter to me. pls give me good heart god. honestly i wanna change my bad attitude.please enlighten him and guide him also..i dnt know him that will but then i can see his a good man. take care of him and i hope someday he will forgive me. i will missed him .